this is reality!

emmm... actually even though i had many friends but i still feel lonely and i still try to find my real true friend who wil always be there for me...

but it's hard because you expect more from that person who actually can't.

i have a few very good friends and i really appreciate them.but sometime, i think that they cannot understand mhat i feel and what i think about.i really thought that they must hate me so much bacause even i'm around them i feel rejected and sometime i feel like guilty to say something that i wanted to say..

because i'm afraid that they will misunderstand me!

i'ts really hurt when nobody even your good friend cannot understand you.

sometime,when i'm with my friends i have nothing to say to them and i kept my huge problems myself without telling them.

i feel that my friends does not care for me but it's ok because now i'm really used to it.

i don't care if certain of my friends forget me because i know that maybe i cannot be good friend to them or i'm not interesting enough to be their friend.

but i relly hope that oneday i can find my true friend who will love me and care for me even after she's married and have kids.

*kate seorang poyo;benda yang paling kite nak,

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